Goodnight Serenades.
A whisper in the wind calling my name,
Everynight it’s the same,
The same damned voice wandering,
A whisper of sins conjuring,
That’s what it sounded like,
Hid in the wind and strike,
Strike my deepest fears,
This whisper haunts my ears,
And wraps my heart around,
Until it fades away and drowns,
And that’s where it gets more scary,
My room turns into a cemetery,
With souls rambling between screams,
Shattered glasses and dreams,
Screaming my name loudly,
Followed by laughs that are lousy,
Every night, I cannot fight back,
Every night, I venture in the black,
Every night, these souls visit me,
Torturing me with what they could be,
Blaming me for their death,
Blaming me for their loss of breath,
As I hide under my blanket and cry,
They follow me with a creepy “Why?”
“Why?”, “Why?”, “Why?”, “Why?”
“Don’t you think we’re your allies?”
“You betrayed us again, AGAIN!”
Outside crows circle the house,
Trapped like a mere mouse,
As some of them crashes on the window,
Do you want me to continue?
My parents aren’t aware of that,
Last time we sat and had a chat,
They sent me to an asylum,
Trying to bring back the silence,
But that never helped me,
My mind was never the key,
Everything was real,
Like a sort of deal,
I could feel them around me,
But I could never flee,
My screams were muffled by the atmosphere,
Only thing I could do is cry my dear,
I was in a sort of nightmare,
I never knew where,
It felt so real but I was in between,
Maybe I could see the unseen,
These whispers calling out my name,
Were nearly going to tame,
Me, but I got used to it,
But when fear decides to quit,
These spirits don’t,
And they changed the tone,
A broken piano sound accompanied them,
And once again I went numb,
I could distinguish words,
“Run from the world”,
Repeating again and again,
And it soon turned to physical pain,
I could feel these chains,
And these blood stains,
All around my body,
As the piano sound intensifies,
Distant growing cries,
Passed by my heart,
I don’t know, that sound could be art,
But to me it constructed this nightmare,
Built haunted walls that could stare,
Right into my thoughts and change,
To something even more strange,
And this agony grew bigger,
While this world contaminated the mirror,
A smiling face possessed the objects,
Object after object, like something saying “next”,
I lost everything that belonged to me,
And soon I was no longer free,
One day it possessed my soul,
I fell slowly and slowly into this hole,
I couldn’t hear my screams anymore,
I couldn’t control my mind anymore,
I could only hear the laughter, the whispers,
The smiles, I could see see the figures,
The chains that I was locked into,
And the art that my blood drew,
For the first time I was trying to reach these pills,
They looked so far, like up the hills,
My hands were trembling,
And these laughs were deafening,
As soon as I touched the prescription,
I swallowed them to fix my condition,
But nothing worked, I lost control,
“WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL US?”,
“WE ARE YOU NOW, STOP MAKING A FUSS”,
I succumbed… slowly…
I fell… lowly…
They haunted me till the end,
Until I couldn’t defend,
I slept under the autumn breeze,
While the crows rejoiced between the trees,
An eternal sleep.
“Can you not weep?”,
I told him, I’m sorry I’m one of them now,
I’m forced to do this I vow,
And with them I whispered,
As he cried and listened,
“Why?”, “Why?”, “Why?”,
You’re going to become one of us and die,
Like me…, do not resist, do not even try.